Wasn’t ready to let you go

Wasn't ready to let you go

For my Mother RIP Nov 1957- April 2004

Written April 2, 2013

I wasn't ready to let you go.

Even though I'm told that it was your time.

I can't get that through my mind.

I wasn't ready to let you go.

It wasn't meant to be that way.

you weren't meant to be taken away.

you needed to guide me still, meet your grandchildren one day.

You were healthy one day, sick the next,

I don't know how it went so fast,

I am still bitter, very angry,

you are supposed to be here with your family.

I reach out and take you by the hand and ask Mom are you okay?

Your answer was unheard of as cancer took your memory and voice away.

Now I cry,

this can not be.

this can not be happening as tears slide,

I beg you to stay

This can not be happening this way.

You were sick with a sinus infection,

next thing I know its cancer that has your body's attention,

you went through the worst of the radiation and chemo,

looking forward to moving forward and letting this go,

But, it didn't happen that way.

Cancer spread in a hurry.

You suddenly had seizures, loss of mobility, loss of memory

you didn't know yourself or even your own family

It pained me to see a woman once so funny, loving and strong,

a frail person, unable to move along,

And I knew deep inside it broke every inch of your heart.

Momma, will the tears ever dry?

I ask this as I wipe my eyes.

I'm told in time.

But I don't think so.

I wasn't ready to let you go...

Still, 9 years later,

My eyes water, heart shatters,

I am still NOT ready to let you go.

For my Beautiful Mother Pat Jeffrey

November 27th, 1957 - April 10th, 2004

Passed away in Vulcan Alberta at the

age of 47

leaving behind her twin sister Pam Jeffrey,

daughter Meagan Jeffrey and Granddaughter

Jessy Jeffrey

and now 3 more Grandchildren she never got

to meet, Austin, Dallas and Phoenix

May you feel no more pain and be resting easy mom

I love you and miss you every day.

©2013 Meagan Jeffrey