Never have I felt more alone
Never have I felt more alone than I do right now. I am surrounded by a ton of people yet no one cares or listens to my wants, needs or anything I have to say. It's the WORST feeling anyone can feel. I could be SCREAMING at the top of my lungs and no one around me would hear or care what I am saying. It's really pathetic.
At this point in time, I really HATE my life and those in it. I don't want to be surrounded by people who don't care about me or my needs. I don't want to be around people who have so much to say, who always have their hands out for shit yet, never want to give an ounce back. They could care LESS about me so WHY should I give two FUCKS about them?! I won't anymore. Easy as that.
I am going to REMOVE myself from this situation and leave their asses in the dust. I can't go on with people like this in my life. So self-involved and selfish. I won't play their me, me, me games anymore. I won't deal with them turning EVERY conversation and need into something about THEM. If I am sore or sick, THEY are sorer or more sick. If I have a headache, their headache is worse. If I need to go someplace, they need to go to two more places that are more important. If I have to go to the doctor, they need to go to the doctor about more important things. If I have diabetes, THEY fucking now magically have it too! FUCK THIS!
I can't and won't do this anymore. I hate it so much. When I speak, I am spoken over or no one listens. Seriously, they don't LISTEN!! They don't hear what I say and I know they don't because when I ask them what I said, they tell me they don't know or they "FORGOT!" Yeah, I get it, I am NOT important to anyone. That's awesome.
And my fake ass family will all sit together while I am not in the room being all happy, chummy and getting along, don't give two fucks I am NOT there. Talk behind my back and just leave me OUT of everything. That's cool. They'll regret it when I am GONE. (What I mean by gone is when I MOVE away from all their asses). When I am not there to sit with them at the table for supper or to cook their fucking meals and do their laundry, their chores and pick up all the pieces for their asses. That's cool. I'll remember all the fakeness and false attitudes. I'll remember each and every time I was left out of the shit and not listened to and ignored, neglected, mistreated and treated like complete SHIT. I won't forget ANY of it.
This world is a really lonely place when you're surrounded by people who are fake and just don't care about you. It really is. The world is lonely enough, hard enough as it is. Your people shouldn't be the ones to make you feel lonelier and mistreated. They shouldn't be the ones to make you feel sad, hurt and so fucking alone. But whatever, that's life I guess right?
At this point in time, I really HATE my life and those in it. I don't want to be surrounded by people who don't care about me or my needs. I don't want to be around people who have so much to say, who always have their hands out for shit yet, never want to give an ounce back. They could care LESS about me so WHY should I give two FUCKS about them?! I won't anymore. Easy as that.
I am going to REMOVE myself from this situation and leave their asses in the dust. I can't go on with people like this in my life. So self-involved and selfish. I won't play their me, me, me games anymore. I won't deal with them turning EVERY conversation and need into something about THEM. If I am sore or sick, THEY are sorer or more sick. If I have a headache, their headache is worse. If I need to go someplace, they need to go to two more places that are more important. If I have to go to the doctor, they need to go to the doctor about more important things. If I have diabetes, THEY fucking now magically have it too! FUCK THIS!
I can't and won't do this anymore. I hate it so much. When I speak, I am spoken over or no one listens. Seriously, they don't LISTEN!! They don't hear what I say and I know they don't because when I ask them what I said, they tell me they don't know or they "FORGOT!" Yeah, I get it, I am NOT important to anyone. That's awesome.
And my fake ass family will all sit together while I am not in the room being all happy, chummy and getting along, don't give two fucks I am NOT there. Talk behind my back and just leave me OUT of everything. That's cool. They'll regret it when I am GONE. (What I mean by gone is when I MOVE away from all their asses). When I am not there to sit with them at the table for supper or to cook their fucking meals and do their laundry, their chores and pick up all the pieces for their asses. That's cool. I'll remember all the fakeness and false attitudes. I'll remember each and every time I was left out of the shit and not listened to and ignored, neglected, mistreated and treated like complete SHIT. I won't forget ANY of it.
This world is a really lonely place when you're surrounded by people who are fake and just don't care about you. It really is. The world is lonely enough, hard enough as it is. Your people shouldn't be the ones to make you feel lonelier and mistreated. They shouldn't be the ones to make you feel sad, hurt and so fucking alone. But whatever, that's life I guess right?
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